The space between No Longer and Not Yet

I remember the first time I realized that, who I was in any given moment was created by the sum of all my past experiences, combined with all my fears and hopes for the future.

Simplistically, the past me plus the future me equals the present me.

It made me feel as if everything was 100% ordered and controlled and a long sequence of cause and effect, resulting in the culmination of some divine master plan for my life.

It made me feel cared for, looked after.

At the time it also made me worry less – I had a very deep belief that the Universe would guide me, and lead me wherever I needed to be next.

I suppose deep down I still believe that, but I’ve forgotten to not fret or worry, or not to feel like I’ve made a mess of things along the way.

And so here I am, on the brink of a journey that is bound to test this belief in every way possible.

the line of life has four paths – 

one with a mirror, one with a mask, one with a fist, one with a heart.

After 15 years in a corporate environment, I am ready to leave behind my career, face my delusions and regrets, unclench my fists and excavate myself with unconditional friendliness and care.

With a pack on my back and Spirit by my side, I’m about to embark on a Path with Heart.

“In a world where you can be anything, be kind.”

March 2018